It's a miracle....

I actually picked up a needle and thread and stitched for an hour or so on Sunday. I did this after napping thru the races. Jimmie didn't win, but he's still in first. Yahoo!

John and I were trying to figure out when we because Nascar fans, at least until football season starts.

It was an okay weekend.....we had some major issues with Jessica on Friday. I'll tell ya all about them later.

Off to bed. Sweet dreams.

Effects of too much Benadryl

I took 2 Benadryl caplets yesterday morning. BIG MISTAKE!! I was a zombie by lunchtime. I ended up going home after lunch and slept for 4 hours.

Woke up in time to make it to my counseling appointment. It went well. I think I like the counselor. We talked about a number of things. I guess trying to figure out what my issues are and starting to find out what may be causing them.

She did give me a "prescription" so to speak. I am to get at least 20 minutes of sunshine a day and I need to start exercising. Also, she wants me to see a GYN to get my hormones and everything checked to make sure that I am okay.

I made an appointment with her for Jessica. Jessica is not liking the whole idea, but I can see Jessica ending up where I'm at in 20 years, if she does not talk to someone now.

It's Friday, the sun in shining and I am stuck inside....

Have a great weekend!

It's a rainy day, but my outlook is better....

I feel better today. I have taken my meds 2 days in a row now. I think I may have skipped a few to many by accident. Last night I watched some TIVO and "The Notebook" ate a few too many Cheese Puffs. It was my me time.

I do have an appointment with a counselor today. I need to work out some issues, but I really don't know what a counselor is suppossed to do, but listen to me. I also need to talk to her about Jessica.

Jessica really needs to talk to someone, she will not talk to me or her dad. I know there are things going on in that brain of hers. She is 14 and I know that is a rough time for her.

What other people think of me....

Why do I care so much about what other people think of me. I worry about how they think I look or how I act. I know how I look is something I am stuck with for the rest of my life (unless I shell out the $$$ for some major cosmetic surgery), but I can change the way I act.

I have realized that I am a people pleaser. I want to make every one happy around me. I want people to like me.

I have never been a "girlie" girl. Never into the make-up, clothes, etc....but lately I have really started to worry about my appearance and how others see me. I have gotten contacts and started wearing make-up and making sure my hair looks nice.

It's taking an extra effort on my part to do this. I am trying to hard? Do I worry to much?

Why am I here?

What's the point? I feel useless. I cannot find any meaning in my life. I hate the way I look and feel. I am not worth the air I breathe or the space I take up on this earth.

In the almost 36 years I have been alive, I cannot think of one single positive impact I have made on anything or anyone. I often wonder if I would even be missed if I weren't here.

I'm stuck in a rut. I hate the job I go to every day. I hate the house I come home to...sometimes I even hate the family that I come home to. I have made so many sacrifices for the people around me...I feel lost, unappreciated and taken advantage of.

What about me? Where do I fit in? Where is the happy person I should be?

Saturday Busy Saturday

It's going to be a very busy Saturday for me.

I'm going to get my nails done, a pedicure, my eyebrows waxed. Time to make me semi-pretty.

Then I'm headed to Decatur to have lunch with one of my new co-workers (BeautiControl). I have lots of questions, regarding the new business I have decided to start. Here is my webpage:

http://www.beautipage.com/kalthouse/

Jessica and I are going to see the production of Grease tonight as performed by Arab Musical Theater. We are taking her friend Cassie and Jessica's "boyfriend" Wesley. What was supposed to be a Mother/Daughter night, turned into something else.

I also have to run by and pay the rent, water and phone bill. Make a stop at the stitching store to pay on my layaway. I'm getting a cool new lamp. Can't find a picture of it now.

John has yard work to do.

Happy Saturday!

Different stuff

The past few days have been very busy for me. I have been working 10-12 hour days, trying to get caught up.

I am also starting a new business, so I went to my unit meeting tonight. I am an Independant Consultant for a company called BeautiControl. I have to get my website set up. Perhaps this weekend.

My contacts are feeling better. I wore them today for the third full day in a row. Putting them in and taking them out is getting easier. My vision is much clearer with my glasses and I have not tried stitching with my contacts, reading is still a little bit difficult. I do like the fact that I don't have to keep pushing my glasses up or cleaning them because I have smudged them.

Made a trip to Hobby Lobby this evening. Bought lots of charts, spent $70. They were all clearance charts, most marked 1/2 off or more. I probably ended up with about $140 worth of charts. Picked out a few for gifts. Not to be stitched by me, but to go to other stitchers.

Talking to a counselor tomorrow. I am going mainly because of Jessica. The counselor and I are going to discuss Jessica's situation to see what she might benefit from seeing a counselor. I know I need to go myself.

It has poured rain all day and is still raining....yuck!

The gym is calling my name, just have not been able to answer yet.

Time for bed...

Night all.

Contacts

I've been wearing glasses since I was in the 9th grade (age 14), almost 22 years now. Friday I made a trip to the eye doctor to try contacts. I wore them a couple of hours on Friday and Saturday. None on Sunday.

Here it is Monday and I am going to attempt to wear them all day. My vision is not as crisp as it is with glasses, so we will see how it goes.

Happy Monday all!

Must blog more often....

...a friend of mine recently reminded me that I need to blog more often. So here I am after a month and a half.

Today John, Jessica and I went to Huntsville for a late lunch/early dinner. We went to a place that we had never been to before. Green Hills Grille, it was a little pricey, but very good. I brought home leftovers.

John was being very good about letting me go where I wanted to, so we went to Linens 'n Things. We spent $168. Jessica got 2 new towels, 2 hand towels, a washcloth, a rug, and a toilet seat cover. They are all in yellow. I got a new towel and a new hair towel in turquoise. I also got a squishy neck pillow that has a vibrator inside. We got a couple of other small things.

I did pick up one of those Conair Quick Braid tools for $5. I am going to try to use it for making twisted cording, instead of hair. I have a project that I need twisted cord for.

John also took me to Target, so I could get Starbucks. Yummm!

He was a very good husband today, no complaining. Jessica was very good today too. All in all we had a very good family day.

Ciao!

One Day at a Time

I actually got out of bed this morning when my alarm clock went off at 5:30 a.m.

I need to get back to the gym. I am going to attempt to start on Tuesday. Not Monday, because John needs to leave before Jessica gets on the bus and I need to stay home until then. When school is out, I can go to the gym on Monday's too.

I started a couple of days ago drinking lots of water. I bought one of those mugs at Wal-Mart that holds 64 0zs. of water. I have drank the entire thing, plus some 3 days in a row.

I'm doing this from work, so need to cut it short. More later.